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it's out... LOVE YOU - cry for you - pray for you-...

2009-07-21T07:05:04.473-07:00

it's out...
LOVE YOU - cry for you - pray for you- look forward to being with you!

Mile, I went to AZ Vicky and also thanked her for ...

2009-07-10T21:49:52.385-07:00

Mile, I went to AZ Vicky and also thanked her for taking care of you, supporting you in her beautiful comments, you, who are my blog-friend. We care about you all who have been so mistreated, so abused, so taken advantage of.

Love comes from Naples FL, and Steve E

You did not do anything wrong. You were a child. I...

2009-07-10T19:15:01.785-07:00

You did not do anything wrong. You were a child. It is not your fault. Keep saying that over and over. "It is not my fault. I was just a child."
Take care of you.

This had to have been a healing post for you sweet...

2009-07-10T17:03:13.558-07:00

This had to have been a healing post for you sweety. Remember that it is NEVER your fault. What happened to you, to me, to any of us, is not something that we brought upon ourselves. You were very brave in sharing this post with us. It's scary to face our fears the way you did here. Hang in there and prayers will continue to go up for your healing process on this end.

What a blessing that you were able to get these th...

2009-07-10T07:28:40.035-07:00

What a blessing that you were able to get these thoughts harbored heaven only knows how many years in your mind - OUT INTO THE SUNLIGHT.

The Sunlight can take away their power to hurt you.

WHAT HAPPENED WAS NOT YOUR FAULT! PERIOD! END OF STORY! ABUSE IS NEVER THE VICTIM'S FAULT! EVER! FLOODED BASEMENT OR NOT!

I pray that releasing this story will allow you to heal - just as you "hope".

P.S. - YOUR LIFE TODAY WITH YOUR CHILDREN IS NOT A REPEAT PERFORMANCE! IS NOT!

I love you so much. All will be well in God's gracious time and with His gracious love,
Prayer Girl

Oh. Wow. I'm so sorry. I think the hardest part...

2009-07-09T19:03:36.651-07:00

Oh.

Wow.

I'm so sorry.

I think the hardest part is forgiving ourselves. You were set up. It wasn't your fault. Remember, you were a kid. I hope you can forgive yourself and cry tears of compassion and forgiveness for your child self.

Hey, would you like to host a July edition of The Blog Carnival Against Child Abuse. Your ability to share in this way tells me (among other things) what a great host you will be. Let me know when you can. Thanks!

Mile, We have never met, but I feel like I know y...

2009-07-09T12:10:37.186-07:00

Mile,

We have never met, but I feel like I know you intimately. I, too, had the crazy mother, the abusive step-father, and still have a wonderful brother with whom I am close despite all the shit that happened when we were young.

Like you, I have made the worst threats of my childhood into jokes with my own kids. "Don't make me beat you" is the Moonlight Mom's code for an imminent tickle fest if the kids don't start behaving. I say it and they start laughing and begging me to "beat" them.

Like you, one of my worst fears is becoming my Egg Donor (the term mother cannot possibly apply to her; my brother calls her Psycho Bitch. Neither of us has seen nor talked to her in almost 2 decades. I'm hoping she's dead.) My fear of becoming her was so profound that it led to two suicide attempts.

Like you, I blamed myself for a long, long time. When I'm having a rough time in & out of PTSD attacks, I still blame myself. But, when I am most myself, I know that as a child I was powerless to control the actions of those in the Authority Roles of my life. As the wife of a sex addict in recovery, I've learned that I can't control his actions either. I can only take care of myself. I am only responsible for myself and, sometimes, the only control I have is to make decisions based on the rotten choices of others. However, the decisions are mine and they are healthier than they have ever been.

I'm proud of you for laying out your thinking struggles in here. I am sending you love and (((hugs))) to save for whenever you need them. Perhaps you are in a great space today, but if the self-blame train starts coming down your track, please remember you are not alone and it was not your fault.

Mile, I am so proud of you for telling this beauti...

2009-07-09T11:33:53.462-07:00

Mile,
I am so proud of you for telling this beautiful story. It is a story of how you came to be you. One of the stories. This is a story which makes me laugh and then brings many tears.
You are an amazing THRIVER with so many gifts to offer, because of your stories.
I am satisfied that you have walked away from the computer, that you no longer are staying in all of this pain, I am proud of you.
Honor yourself, honor your pain.
I Honor you my friend.
Vicki

Life has given you all kinds of trials, and you ar...

2009-07-09T08:23:29.387-07:00

Life has given you all kinds of trials, and you are still here! isn't that wonderful? You are bigger than life. its ok to cry, it cleanses your soul and spirit. you will be fine. Nothing stop us from going back to memories, but we learn something in our way back!
Please feel good today Mile.

I agree with Patty, whatever you think you were a ...

2009-07-09T08:08:17.468-07:00

I agree with Patty, whatever you think you were a kid. Nothing what you did openend the door for what happenend later. It is the adult who is responsible NOT YOU. I can relate to the feeling of abdandonment. Father dead, stepfather abused me and Mother knew it. It took me quite a while to figure that she turned me in an orphan. Her abandonment turned me into an orphan despite her being alive. Yeah men's tendency to solve to take your and their hurt away. Be kind to yourself. BE KIND to the KID inside you. IT IS NOT HER FAULT. Tons of hugs across the pond

No matter what you think, you are not being punish...

2009-07-09T05:46:21.015-07:00

No matter what you think, you are not being punished, honey. We always think everything is our fault. You were just being a kid. Have yourself a good cry and take those kids swimming today. OK?
{{{HUGS}}}