Wordless Wednesday!

some of the love...

...still Christmas at out house...
peaceful and sweet
the kids letting me sleep
turning the lights to dim
and the tree on

one hour at a time
stories and memories
keep us smiling as the New Year comes in

resolutions to make
old ones to account for
and no reason to not be thankful
we have you.

Happy New Year....

and in a few you will have our resolve to go and do

I have officially named my Grandmothers birthday
as Me Improvement Day
at our house

she was one cool lady
and to resolve to be more like her
on her Birthday
I can't think of a better way to
honor and celebrate her

I will forever leave my Christmas lights on
until the day of her birth
for that was how she saw fit
to keep Christmas

and under the light of the tree
I will find ways to improve me.

Happy Me Improvement Day to you all!
January 9, 2009

not much

Not sure that I have much to write.
I can't sleep.
Insomnia has a hold of my head and I am stuck; awake.

I wish for rest to come.

Hope that this finds everyone having success in the New Year.

I do feel so much gratitude for the friendship and support that I have recieved.

I hope to be back to blogging as the week comes.
I just haven't felt up to it.
Thank you all who check in on me.
I do appreciate you.

Hey, how about some questions?
Steveroni did an interview post.
It was fun to read.
What do you all want to know from me?

I don't know quite what to write about these days....I feel kind of numb emotionally, and I am not sure that I like this feeling.

I know, medication and help, suppose to be good for you, but I don't think I like it.

I like feeling my life, I like feeling MY feelings.

I knew this would happen, and I don't know if I can keep it up.
I will keep getting help,
I just don't know about the Meds.

So, ask away.
Give me something to write about.
Thanks ahead of time. ....oh, and happy sabbath.

I think I should find a funny to post.
My Sunday Funnies.
I have really been off haven't I.
Well, heres to Sunday, and to you, love and hugs.
♥, Hope.

writing to heal

it's been a while since i have written much.
i came to a good place in my journey,
and i feel a lot of hope.
i accepted help.
professional help.

probably because,

no actually BECAUSE of so many of you.

you friends here who have given me hope
and have given me a desire to seek help,
and helped me to realize that I am worth the help.

I know I began this journey to feel like I have a voice,
to speak out and to be empowered by my words and my story.
Because by writing about it I feel it is no longer a secret.
And I have felt like it doesn't make me a broken mess.

Broken maybe, but not a mess.
I always felt that if anyone knew
the real truth that they would not be able to like me,
or that it would be like having the plague;

they might still like me but have to avoid me
because whatever it was it was really bad.

I don't feel like that anymore.

Today I just wanted to write to say, I am still here.
I am not sure that I have much to say today.
But I needed to say thanks.
Thanks for still checking on me,
even though right now the rut I am in doesn't have words.

THanKS! ♥

Has anyone heard anything from Amy???