come into my closet, come under my bed, where you'll find me hiding,
the fear in my head.

abuse in the past, now, where do i start, making my future,
healing my heart.

crushed, and broken, falling fast-
needing comfort, make it last.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

its raining, its pouring

Since the beginning of summer for my kids we have not seen even one day without rain. Things are really clean and green and I am actually enjoying the weather. Maybe because there isn't much to do...feed the ducks, bake cookies....and TONS of housework, that I incessintly put off. Today I am setting a goal to clean out my room. I hope to have my entire room moved into the front room by evening....and then to get the carpet cleaned, and begin moving is more for me, but I am going to call it my Happy Fathers Day gift....Happy Wife, Happy Life.


Just Be Real said...

Goal setting is good Mile! I like this post very much! Thank you for sharing what'cha gonna be doing dear one!

si tu veux said...

Thanks...Just Be Real. I am working on it. Gotten through half of one corner, and two drawers...More than I have done in is ongoing but I feel happy to be working on it. I am checking in to keep myself in check...


Psych Client said...

Hi Mile, I'm glad you're doing well. I need to set some goals like you are, that might bring me out of my slump.


Cat said...

Baking cookies is such a great idea! I am on my way over to help eat them! hehe

VICKI IN AZ said...

I love this... I am so proud of you and I hope you can enjoy the sanctuary of that clean room. I just got home from 3 days away with the YW in my ward. I have missed you.
You have inspired me I will let you know my goals for cleaning next week.

SapphireDreams said...

Goals are good to set and even better when you can attain them.
Hope you are doing well. Take care.

VICKI IN AZ said...

Hi, it's Father's Day and I am thinking of you so much I just had to say that I am glad we found each other.
I hope you have a peaceful day.

Hey I am teaching about Forgiveness is Laurels today, what is that about no coincidences in life? ;)

♥ U!

who I was, who I am, who I plan to be...

i am trying to heal from severe childhood sexual, emotional,
physical, and mental abuse; and abandonment.

this is my story.

i have good and bad days, and some days the odds seem insurmountable.
i cling to the hope that healing will come to mend the shatter pieces of my heart, mind and body.

mile 191, well, you will understand as you read along.
mile 191, portions of my past have a link on the top right.
mile 191, bottoms up. hears to you and to me.

please, if you know me, just let me know you found me. i need honesty. (and please do not use personal names)
if you want to follow my story, please try to heal with me.
if you want to share with me, please do.
i will post bits of my pain as i can, and leave it here.
i once thought that i would publish...i haven't had the courage.

this is my closet, you are welcome to come in.
just know this is my refuge, healing takes place here,
maybe it will be a refuge to you too.

Quotes from Suvivors United - Standing Strong Together Against Abuse

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face.
Eleanor Roosevelt

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Helen Keller

Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.
Booker T. Washington

When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard, ' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'
Sydney Harris

Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.
Richard L. Evans

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.
Joshua J. Marine

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

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I invite all my faithful and dear blogger friends to take this award. You indeed have made a difference in my life.

Thank you so much for being with me on my journey to heal....mile 191