I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave'
Cause your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus:]
When you cried
I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream
I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand
through all of these years
But you still have
All of me
You used to captivate me
By your resonating light
Now I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts
My once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away
All the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
[Chorus]
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me
I've been alone all along
[Chorus]
20 comments:
Oh sweetie, I can relate to most of your post here. I had surgery about 6 weeks ago and ended up having a massive downward spiral almost resulting in hospitalization. It's amazing how much our emotional defenses are affected by our physical state. I had no ability to fight anything off emotionally and my mind was filled with evil.
As for your mom... I read your post and feel nothing but anger. Anger that an adult (even more one now than when you were a child) can act like that. It makes me so mad that there is no common sense. Forget maternal instincts.. COMMON SENSE! I know you are probably far from being angry (as I am in many things of my life that seem to anger other people) but when you get there, embrace it. You should be angry. You deserve every ounce of love and support and should not have to wonder what it is like.
I guess Lily said it all. I've being reading you since 2008, and my question is: what makes you go back to the past after you, emotionally have out of it triumphant!. happy vs. sad, there must be a comfort zone in your pain that make you come back. please let go and let GOD. read the bible, find many places where Jesus says dont worry, I worry for you. please read Salm 27. Mile your pain is mine too because we learned to love you, like a family should.
the songs are well written, but only reasure what you need to forget, the songs do to you what salt to a wound, you have to change that behavior, dont punish yourself forgive yourself, Jesus is waiting repentance, he died for your sins, that debt is taking care of, Jesus paid. change route.
人有兩眼一舌，是為了觀察倍於說話的緣故。............................................................
感謝予我如此動感的blog！..................................................................
人生中最重要的是要自尊、自愛、自立、自強、自信。..................................................
偶爾上來逛逛，下次不知是否還有緣再進來，先祝您平安順利!!!............................................................
單純喜歡你的部落格 留個言跟您問聲好~~............................................................
不要去想沒拿到的東西，多想想自己手裡所擁有的..................................................
This song has always had a huge impact on me, too.
I'm sorry you've been going through such a rough time. I hope you know I am thinking of you and keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. And always sending ((((((((((safe, warm, gentle hugs))))))))))
人應該做自己認為對的事，而不是一味跟著群眾的建議走。..................................................
來給你加油打氣，祝福大家開開心心。 ............................................................
好的開始並不代表會成功，壞的開始並不代表是失敗..................................................
人不能像動物一樣活著，而應該追求知識和美德............................................................
好的開始並不代表會成功，壞的開始並不代表是失敗..................................................
來塊巧克力吧~~心情會好哦~~...............................................................
真正仁慈的人，會忘記他們做過的善行，他們全心投入現在的工作，過去的事已被遺忘。.................................................
Cheek brings success.............................................................
Drive carefully. It is not only cars that can be recalled by their Maker...................................................................
Man proposes, God disposes..................................................................
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