come into my closet, come under my bed, where you'll find me hiding,
the fear in my head.

abuse in the past, now, where do i start, making my future,
healing my heart.

crushed, and broken, falling fast-
needing comfort, make it last.

Friday, May 25, 2012

good gRief?

my post an obit on a wall 
grieved with the loss of a friend of a friend. i had a little tearful sMILE with said friend.

my friend
who lost his good friend
 about a week ago. 

this friend of my good friend was a good guy living with some life baggage -- as all human beings tend to do.

this good guy had some struggles, he died after consuming one particular struggle.
 left behind people who loved him,
who appreciated him,
who saw all the good stuff in this guy.

but the sMILE in the story is that this good guy did something really nice for someone else about a month ago. 

this story is one to share....i wish to shout it to the world!!!  [blogger will help :) ]

 --- be kind, you can't rewind life....but you can leave a legacy behind.

it goes like this:

a young couple came into the station
where this good guy worked.
they had just had a baby
and were headed home from the hospital.

home was about an hour away.

they had to be in a
special hospital
kind of far
from "home".

the young father needed to fill up with gas.
his credit card didn't work.
something about his own life struggles.
he was in a sad sorrow,
his young baby
and baby's mother in the car waiting.

so this good guy
spent his own money
to fill up this young couples car.

he also gifted them some drinks
and munchies for the road trip home.

the young man
with the generosity
of our good guy
said "i will be back to pay you".

the good guy said
"no worries,
enjoy your new baby,
it's my treat"

here we are
-- a month later,

a week since
good guys sad passing
from this world

the young man comes back
into the station,

an hour from home

asking when good guy will be at work

"will you give him this envelope?"

my good friend of the good guy
with tears in his eyes
told the young man
about his friends passing.

the young man broke

tears shed,
a hug between two strangers

both touched by the loss
left an emptyness
in their embrace.


the envelope
inside was a bill - to pay back the debt

and a baby birth announcement

the impact of good guys kindness
will live on in the young mans son

the baby boy
middle name --
"good guy"

for in this strangers kindness
to these two young parents
trying to get home

left a legecy

baby boy "good guy" last name

i suppose the moral of this for me
is that
when you remember
the print of a person
in your life ---

at times
can be
a lot of good
among the gRief.


Steve E said...

I suppose you and I know one another (through blogging and emails couple years ago) as well as any strangers might know--there is built a trust here which is spiritual. (I really don't know what I'm writing here--grin!)

I know the truth of your (many) stories. Some of us just have lived more than one life in our time here, like being transported from one place (life) to another, with very little action on our part--I'm looking backward now, ya know?

Our lives just reinforce what I believe, that, whatever you or I might think, God IS in charge. Hard as it is for us to see, there IS a purpose in everything.

You, Stacie, are one of the sweeter Peeps here, and I bless you and wish for you...PEACE!
Your friend, Steve

Steve E said...

Pardon the Double Dip; just wanted you to know that 79 years ago tomorrow at 7 AM, I was born into the WWW--What a Wonderful World! May 25!

You don't have to respond, I know you always have good wishes for me, as I for you!

Worth-Waiting-For said...

What a beautiful story. Thank you so much for sharing. I was touched to the point of tears - the good kind :)

Just Be Real said...

Safe hugs to you dear one....

grumpy.sleepy.sneezy said...

Gratitude for my blessings...
not much else to say.

grumpy.sleepy.sneezy said...

tears and gratitude....
not much else to say.

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i am trying to heal from severe childhood sexual, emotional,
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this is my story.

i have good and bad days, and some days the odds seem insurmountable.
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Quotes from Suvivors United - Standing Strong Together Against Abuse

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face.
Eleanor Roosevelt

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Helen Keller

Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.
Booker T. Washington

When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard, ' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'
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Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.
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