come into my closet, come under my bed, where you'll find me hiding,
the fear in my head.

abuse in the past, now, where do i start, making my future,
healing my heart.

crushed, and broken, falling fast-
needing comfort, make it last.

Sunday, March 15, 2009

Grace through Hope reflection

The quote below was in my email today. I have put a bit o thought...like the bit o irish in that rhetoric...

...bit o thought...

into what it says.
"We should have great hope in knowing, however unworthy we may feel or weak we may be, that if we will do all we can, He will come to our aid and provide for us whatever we may lack."


Really, He will come to our aid...and provide for us whatever we may lack. What a thought...

I want to believe this. Grace through Hope. I do HOPE to believe this. And Grace...what a beautiful promise..

Okay, I have said before that I love words, and their meanings. My favorite book of all is the Collegiate Dictionary....1692 pages of pure fun. Some of my best disciplines for my kids have happened in the pages of this book. I love it.

So I looked up Grace: a sense of what is right and proper...thoughtfulness toward others. good will...mercy...a period of time granted beyond the date set for the performance of an act or payment of an obligation; temporary exemption...

i want to focus on this one for a minute...although there are many other parts of the word to dissect.

period of time granted...here on earth. We have been given an amount of time to make good on the promise that we made in heaven. That we would do our best, remember Him, and keep commandments...do what is right. He has given us grace...a period of time to work out the distractions of the world and turn our selves over to Him. A time to discover ourselves, and find that we indeed need HIM. Then we turn to Him, and He makes more of us than we could ever make on our own. We discover Grace through Hope. Our desire to make our lives better. To make better choices. Choices that lead our hearts to purity and peace.

Back to the definition. ...the condition of a person thus influenced, a special virtue given to a person by God.

fall from grace is...to DO WRONG, SIN...

graceless: lacking any sense of what is write and proper...

but

graceful: having grace, a beauty of form, composition, movement, expression.


I have seen and been fortunate to be with people who are indeed full of GRACE. Very elegant and peaceful people.

That is how I want to be...I Hope to have Grace...and I do wish to continue to heal, as I find peace in who I am and what I am becoming.

Thanks for being on my journey with me. Please, if you are new here, feel free to read my book posts. See the right side bar for easy access of them in order. Trigger warning: If you have been abused some of these posts might trigger some memories in you. Read only if you feel strength to use them in positive healing ways.

I am doing much better. I have hard days. I don't post here as much, and need to read each of you. Please comment if you are reading so that I can return to you and be part of your support team. safe hugs to each of you.

♥Mile 191....becoming SMile 191

7 comments:

The Real Gal said...

Very sweet. Thanks so much for sharing Mile! Blessings!

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

Thank you for this, my life is now much more attached to prayer, the big book, the BIG BIG BOOK and the dictionary.

I spent so long living my life through other peoples conceptions without actually getting down on my knees and asking for a personal experience, once I did... My life EXPLODED and I will never be the same (In the best way possible)

And thank you for the music you have attached.

G-Man said...

You exemplify the word Grace !!

Psych Client said...

I love the word Grace. I don't have much of it lately but it reminds me of a time that I love to watch movies in. Old royalty movies where they say "your Grace".

Your writings are so impacting, some just have the gift Mile and you have it.

Mama Zen said...

This is a lovely post. I have the same struggle to let go and believe.

Cat said...

I do like this post alot and just in time for me today.
(Smile 191 fits you)

steveroni said...

BOY, do I like "smile 191" That's GOTTA be a good sign! thanks for that new word... About words, I do not like the word UNWORTHY, as in the following quote:

"We should have great hope in knowing, however unworthy we may feel or weak we may be, that if we will do all we can, He will come to our aid and provide for us whatever we may lack."

For SO MANY years I 'knew' I was unworthy...and that made me think God didn't love me. So I'm 'revisioned' and have to think that I AM worthy, if only to be used by Him for His purpose.

Well, that's enuff, girl. "smile 191" you've got a good handle on all this stuff, and I know where you get it. And please you stay close to that place, and your whole family. I believe also!
Blessings,
Steve E.

who I was, who I am, who I plan to be...

i am trying to heal from severe childhood sexual, emotional,
physical, and mental abuse; and abandonment.


this is my story.

i have good and bad days, and some days the odds seem insurmountable.
i cling to the hope that healing will come to mend the shatter pieces of my heart, mind and body.


mile 191, well, you will understand as you read along.
mile 191, portions of my past have a link on the top right.
mile 191, bottoms up. hears to you and to me.


please, if you know me, just let me know you found me. i need honesty. (and please do not use personal names)
if you want to follow my story, please try to heal with me.
if you want to share with me, please do.
i will post bits of my pain as i can, and leave it here.
i once thought that i would publish...i haven't had the courage.


this is my closet, you are welcome to come in.
just know this is my refuge, healing takes place here,
maybe it will be a refuge to you too.


Quotes from Suvivors United - Standing Strong Together Against Abuse

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face.
Eleanor Roosevelt

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Helen Keller

Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.
Booker T. Washington

When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard, ' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'
Sydney Harris

Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.
Richard L. Evans

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.
Joshua J. Marine


What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thanks CORNUT32! ♥



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