when she cries

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me cries:
it is not the first time,
and it wont be the last.

i am home, and physically well.
i had better mental emotional days,
but come on, it has been three days.

in three days i have lost something,
accepted loss,
laughed,
cried,
experienced pain and anguish,
experienced peace and hope.
doubted acceptance, been afraid,

certain ups and downs to be expected.


i wrote during the night,
for hours,
and i am weary from crying,
tired because i am stubborn,
and sincerely angry today.

i remember this

January Ensign Magazine,

Boyd K. Packer:

it was meant to be that life

would be a challenge.

to suffer some anxiety,

some depression,

some disappointment,

even some failure is normal.

[we learn]

that if we have a good,

miserable day once in a while,

or several in a row,

to stand steady and face them.

things will straighten out.

there is great purpose in our struggle in life.

and so, with what i have left

i accept only this,

if it is a good miserable day today,

and even if tomorrow is a little difficult

i must stand strong.

how i stand strong right now

is by allowing others to take

care of me,

rest,

sleep,

heal

be patient and

do not try

to understand

everything.

Tomorrow will be a better day.

...and if not

maybe tomorrows morrow

will be.