in my closet, don't come in
hiding in my closet
so much agony
this time no invite to come inside
i have no words
my mind is blank
my fingers have nothing to say
i scream and cry and rant,
alone, in the dark
even here, i am not safe to say
what is breaking me apart
shattered
obliterated
heart
and soul
in the time i have been away from writing
my mother passed away
a long process
of illness
of sorrow
tremendous agony
ache
pain
how much does it hurt?
how much doesn't it.
i haven't words
who I was, who I am, who I plan to be...
i am trying to heal from severe childhood sexual, emotional,
physical, and mental abuse; and abandonment.
this is my story.
i have good and bad days, and some days the odds seem insurmountable.
i cling to the hope that healing will come to mend the shatter pieces of my heart, mind and body.
mile 191, well, you will understand as you read along.
mile 191, portions of my past have a link on the top right.
mile 191, bottoms up. hears to you and to me.
please, if you know me, just let me know you found me. i need honesty. (and please do not use personal names)
if you want to follow my story, please try to heal with me.
if you want to share with me, please do.
i will post bits of my pain as i can, and leave it here.
i once thought that i would publish...i haven't had the courage.
this is my closet, you are welcome to come in.
just know this is my refuge, healing takes place here,
maybe it will be a refuge to you too.
Quotes from Suvivors United - Standing Strong Together Against Abuse
You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face.
Eleanor Roosevelt
When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Helen Keller
Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.
Booker T. Washington
When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard, ' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'
Sydney Harris
Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.
Richard L. Evans
Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.
Joshua J. Marine
What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Ralph Waldo Emerson
Thanks CORNUT32! ♥
What a sweet award....and thanks for creating something so wonderful that can be passed along to bloggers who are indeed making a difference by sharing their lives.
I invite all my faithful and dear blogger friends to take this award. You indeed have made a difference in my life.
Thank you so much for being with me on my journey to heal....mile 191
3 comments:
I have missed you so much. You are not alone. Praying for you, Mile.
Love, Patty
Stacie, I won't come into your closet now, but I will hang around the outer room waiting for when you're ready to 'talk' again.
Hey, what am I saying? You did a whole LOT of 'talking' right on this post!
Thank you for visiting and for your comments on my blog.
PEACE, Stacie! (Come back!)
Easter is a hard time of year for me. Same with Xmas. "FAMILY" stuff.
Blech.
I feel you.
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