come into my closet, come under my bed, where you'll find me hiding,
the fear in my head.

abuse in the past, now, where do i start, making my future,
healing my heart.

crushed, and broken, falling fast-
needing comfort, make it last.

Monday, April 18, 2011

in my closet, don't come in

hiding in my closet

so much agony

this time no invite to come inside


i have no words

my mind is blank

my fingers have nothing to say

i scream and cry and rant,

alone, in the dark


even here, i am not safe to say

what is breaking me apart


shattered

obliterated

heart

and soul


in the time i have been away from writing

my mother passed away


a long process

of illness

of sorrow

tremendous agony

ache

pain


how much does it hurt?

how much doesn't it.


i haven't words

3 comments:

Patty said...

I have missed you so much. You are not alone. Praying for you, Mile.
Love, Patty

Steve E said...

Stacie, I won't come into your closet now, but I will hang around the outer room waiting for when you're ready to 'talk' again.

Hey, what am I saying? You did a whole LOT of 'talking' right on this post!

Thank you for visiting and for your comments on my blog.

PEACE, Stacie! (Come back!)

Samantha Walker said...

Easter is a hard time of year for me. Same with Xmas. "FAMILY" stuff.
Blech.

I feel you.

who I was, who I am, who I plan to be...

i am trying to heal from severe childhood sexual, emotional,
physical, and mental abuse; and abandonment.


this is my story.

i have good and bad days, and some days the odds seem insurmountable.
i cling to the hope that healing will come to mend the shatter pieces of my heart, mind and body.


mile 191, well, you will understand as you read along.
mile 191, portions of my past have a link on the top right.
mile 191, bottoms up. hears to you and to me.


please, if you know me, just let me know you found me. i need honesty. (and please do not use personal names)
if you want to follow my story, please try to heal with me.
if you want to share with me, please do.
i will post bits of my pain as i can, and leave it here.
i once thought that i would publish...i haven't had the courage.


this is my closet, you are welcome to come in.
just know this is my refuge, healing takes place here,
maybe it will be a refuge to you too.


Quotes from Suvivors United - Standing Strong Together Against Abuse

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face.
Eleanor Roosevelt

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Helen Keller

Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.
Booker T. Washington

When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard, ' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'
Sydney Harris

Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.
Richard L. Evans

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.
Joshua J. Marine


What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thanks CORNUT32! ♥



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