I really loved doing the blog carnival, and coming home to your messages of support and love. Truly a great opportunity for me to get to know so many better and to see into your worlds. Thanks for the chance.
I am back!!! Yes, excited to be home, yet so melancholy.
I am struggling with just the blues a bit. Maybe vacation blues....maybe not.
I don't really know.
Kids start school again next week, so much to do ...so little time.
My computer is not working so I have to check in from the Library...not so private, and feels weird, the emotions are so strong and yet, I can not open up for fear of a flood, right here, right now.
I decided to just post a catch up....quickly, and then hopefully as school starts I will be able to have access to this world again more conveniently...I hope.
My husband asked last night...What is wrong? Am I depressed? I didn't really have a chance to answer. Two sweet boys begged me to snuggle them to sleep. I took the chance....
I woke up in the middle of the night and headed to my room. I was restless waking up today...
On my mind...What is wrong? Am I depressed?
well...I think the answer to that is I don't know.
I think so, maybe.
Something is going on, something I don't understand, cant seem to control, something WEIRD in my brain, my physical, emotional, mental being....is broken...again.
I wish I could write more....feels like the world is looking over my shoulder.
I thought that today I would write a letter to my B. He deserves to hear what is going on in my heart. my mind....
he needs to know it is not him.
I plan to write....maybe in my rhetorical dance I will too figure out what is going on with me.
Hope this finds you and yours well, and life moving at a pace that you are able to keep. I hope for you healing and peace. I hope for me too.
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Thanks CORNUT32! ♥
What a sweet award....and thanks for creating something so wonderful that can be passed along to bloggers who are indeed making a difference by sharing their lives.
I invite all my faithful and dear blogger friends to take this award. You indeed have made a difference in my life.
Thank you so much for being with me on my journey to heal....mile 191
9 comments:
So glad to hear from you. I would hate having to do my blogging from the library. Hope your computer will be working before too long. Is it fixable?
The blues - hate them. I don't get blue too often these days, but I have had my fair share of those kinds of days in my lifetime.
Hope that passes soon.
Love and prayers Mile,
PG
Oh so glad to see you again dear one. Pray all gets fixed in computer land for you!
((((safe hugs))))
♥
With words resounding I agree that I and all are glad to see you have returned. I look forward to more of your sweet, spiritual postings, which let us know how you're feeling--and what you're doing about it.
good health to your family.
Blessings!
be gentle with you. Sarah
Take care of yourself as you are picking apart your thoughts. Glad you enjoyed your vacation!
All I can say is HI!!!
I hope the computer gets fixed fast, we have all missed you terribly.
Thinking of your sadness and wishing you faith hope courage and every good gift that you need to figure it all out.
♥
Vicki
nice to see you posting again. i too don't like those days when nothing is 'wrong' yet nothing feels 'right' either.... sleep on it. step back from it. it will soon become clear...
Really glad to see you!
Thinking of you... I hate those feelings, too. I'll be here listening as always. <3
Loved the carnival you hosted. Hope you will submit this month too. More info here - http://enola-survivor.blogspot.com/2009/08/blog-carnival-against-child-abuse.html
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