Okay, here goes. I keep thinking that I will have time to wander through your blogs, read, and join you in healing, and I think....I can't keep writing my life and not being there for you. So that is what is holding me back from being here, from updating, I want to come read you all first.
I am so stretched right now. Running and weary. And, yes, I should be keeping my mental and physical health in mind, and not doing so much, so I tell myself, tomorrow...a new day, and I will rest. Tomorrow hasn't come yet...
Here is how it has been going. I have four very busy children, happy for the most part, and their happiness is contagious. It is true that what you surround yourself with influences you and impacts you. So I am spending a lot of time with them. Helping them with homework, cooking meals with them. Running then to soccer practices and games, running my oldest to football and basketball. Picking them up from friends houses, walking home from school with my youngest - something that I have not done in a couple of years, and I am loving being able to do again. I have been letting them have their friends over, and trying to get over everything not being in order first. This is huge for me.
Yet, I am enjoying the moments.
Saying that...I should clarify that maybe I am doing okay because it sounds like I am busy, actively engaged in a good cause. Someone great once said that was the solution to all dreariness. Be actively engaged in a good cause. So, my children are my cause for now, and they are keeping me running.
Me personally, I have some darkness inside. I get really impatient, and snappy from time to time. I am not being too hard on myself. Last night was our date night, frankly I was so tired and onry by the time we were suppose to leave, that we opted out of going out, stayed in. My husband rubbed my feet, we talked a bit, and were both asleep by 9pm. It was probably the best thing for me. I was on the verge of a breakdown, the kind I had last week....sleep was the best thing, and today...I feel a bit better.
I am a little overwhelmed with what is to come, things that I need to be doing, the anxiety of having to run around, phone calls that need to be returned, responsibilities that I have obligated to....the stuff that makes me anxious....so I am trying to take it one day, one moment at a time.
What I have figured out is that if tomorrow won't come and solve things, I have to change things about today, and it starts with each moment, each minute.
I am going to work on today, and let tomorrow be what it is, when it is.
[thx, Marsha for asking for an update, I really will try to find time to check in on you all, thanks everyone for hanging here with me from time to time. Hope your day is wonderful, or at least that you have some peaceful moments.]
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Thank you so much for being with me on my journey to heal....mile 191
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No worries, sweetie. I like to hear you're okay. I've btdt where you are...I get it.
Thanks, and thanks for asking. That alone is wonderful.
Being in school I see my email everyday, and just having you and other check in and say hello brightens my day and pushes me to be good to myself, and remember I am okay. Thank you.
I never mind you asking for an update, makes me think, and puts life in perspective, this time...writing it helped me see that I am doing better, feeling better.
Had you not asked, I would not have had that revelation...[I hope you get this, do you click the follow up comments box???]
I hadn't even noticed the follow up comments box, but from here forward I'll check it. Thank you.
Hey take care of you - the rest will take care of itself.
Whether you read and comment or not, please keep blogging. We want to know how you are doing and we want to support you.
PG
Dear one you know there is never worries.... totally understand being stretched. You take your time dear one. Blessings and safe hugs!
yikes girl, you have a busy life. capital B. and no wonder you get snappy or irritable at times. who wouldn't. so taking it one step, one issue, one day at a time is the only way to do it. i love you lots, even when you go 'missing' for a few days. as long as you're happy inside....
you're in a good place for the most part. enjoy it. I love being with my kids too because they give me something that feels soooo good. Keep taking care of you. Sarah
xoxo
With you my friend.
Dear Mile 191. I feel close to you on many days, and want to say it does not matter--your commenting on our stuff, or not. What matters is your own health, your piece of mind.
You have a lovely family--but that does not mean it comes so easily. And you have a strong faith in God, so spiritually strong you are...at least the way I see it.
But please relax sometimes...even your Lord went away to be "alone" for a time.
Above all--PEACE! OK?
It sounds like you are using the time you have to be as kind to yourself as possible. That is very good practice!
Hey Mile, I totally understand. Sometimes life just gets in the way of the blog world...
All that matters is that you take care of yourself in any way possible.
Hugs!
How was your weekend, how are the rug rats, yourself?
It's been a week! how are you?
♥ xoxo ♥
Thinking of you Mile my friend!!
;)
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