come into my closet, come under my bed, where you'll find me hiding,
the fear in my head.

abuse in the past, now, where do i start, making my future,
healing my heart.

crushed, and broken, falling fast-
needing comfort, make it last.

Monday, July 13, 2009

Lying there in bed,
with mascera on my pillow.
Stained from a night of tossing and crying,
aching painfully in my past.

And now I have to see my four reasons to break the cycle. [thanks vicki]

And not only my four reasons...but include ME and my husband.

And not only six, but eight. My sister and my niece.

Not eight, but grandfather, my nieces, my nephew. My brothers, an older sister, yes. many... an infinity of reasons.

Reasons like you. People who are here for me, helping me heal.

This is from a magazine called Guideposts. My grandfather sends it to me each month. Jim Rohn --"If you go to work on your goals, your goals will go to work on you. If you go to work on your plan, your plan will go to work on you. Whatever good things we build end up building us."

This is good.

Dr. Wayne Dyer wrote: "Sadness, fear, frustration or any troubling feeling cannot last. Nature doesn't create a storm that never ends."

I am hanging on to this hope.


Thank you. --mile191


Cat said...

always hang on to hope.

Sophie in the Moonlight said...

"If you go to work on your goals, your goals will go to work on you. If you go to work on your plan, your plan will go to work on you. Whatever good things we build end up building us."

Love this quote!!!! and I needed it today. Thank you.

Prayer Girl said...

What a wonderful sentiment expressed here - the reasons to break the cycle - from four to six to eight to 17 to an infinite number. LOVE IT!

Prayer Girl

VICKI IN AZ said...

Mile, this is so beautiful. Thank you for sharing with us. You are right, and infinity of reasons!
I loved this, "Nature doesn't create a storm that never ends"
Love you.

Steve E. said...

I remember as a child saying I hope for this or that. "I hope it snows tonight." "I hope I get a good grade." "Sure hope the Reds win a double header today."

And if my hope was not realized, I knew there would be another day when I might hope again.

Where did that hope go? I need to retrieve it, so I may have hope once more.

Mike Golch said...

Mikl191 G'DAY I have added you to the Recovery Blog Roll.

who I was, who I am, who I plan to be...

i am trying to heal from severe childhood sexual, emotional,
physical, and mental abuse; and abandonment.

this is my story.

i have good and bad days, and some days the odds seem insurmountable.
i cling to the hope that healing will come to mend the shatter pieces of my heart, mind and body.

mile 191, well, you will understand as you read along.
mile 191, portions of my past have a link on the top right.
mile 191, bottoms up. hears to you and to me.

please, if you know me, just let me know you found me. i need honesty. (and please do not use personal names)
if you want to follow my story, please try to heal with me.
if you want to share with me, please do.
i will post bits of my pain as i can, and leave it here.
i once thought that i would publish...i haven't had the courage.

this is my closet, you are welcome to come in.
just know this is my refuge, healing takes place here,
maybe it will be a refuge to you too.

Quotes from Suvivors United - Standing Strong Together Against Abuse

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face.
Eleanor Roosevelt

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Helen Keller

Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.
Booker T. Washington

When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard, ' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'
Sydney Harris

Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.
Richard L. Evans

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.
Joshua J. Marine

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thanks CORNUT32! ♥

What a sweet award....and thanks for creating something so wonderful that can be passed along to bloggers who are indeed making a difference by sharing their lives.

I invite all my faithful and dear blogger friends to take this award. You indeed have made a difference in my life.

Thank you so much for being with me on my journey to heal....mile 191