come into my closet, come under my bed, where you'll find me hiding,
the fear in my head.

abuse in the past, now, where do i start, making my future,
healing my heart.

crushed, and broken, falling fast-
needing comfort, make it last.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009


...not tomorrow, not yesterday...Today.

I decided that I would quickly take a minute to write before I get to my homework. I am so behind in school and really struggling this semester to keep up. My kids are getting older, busier, our schedule is so SCHEDULED.

I do have some, much, time to myself, but find myself not getting done what I should be. Can I say overwhelmed??? Absolutely, but also thankful.

Today I just want to focus on being thankful for the ability to greet each day with ABILITY. I can do so much. I may struggle with a great deal internally, but I am physically so able to do all the things that each day brings. Not that I feel perfectly perfect, but I have the perspective that I am really able to do much, and thankful for that Ability.

So often I have written complaints here and there, whining about all that is pulling me down. Today I just wanted to say that I am aware of all that I can do, and I am thankful.


Prayer Girl said...

Yes, we are far more capable than we often think we are. And when things are so busy with kids, activities, school, etc., just remember it all changes.

The kids grow up, their school activities are no longer, we complete school, new things come into our life. That's life. And it's all good.


Just Be Real said...

Nice post. Like how you are making the effort to share how much you are aware of how thankful you are. Thank you dear one for sharing! Blessings....

VICKI IN AZ said...

Hello my darling grateful friend. Thank you for sharing. Be kind to yourself and take time to just remember how wonderful you are and how much we all love you Mile.

Shadow said...

mmmm, we tend to be much more capable than we think, when it comes to crunch time... hugs and love to you!!!!

Cat said...

I am discovering later in life that I can do anything I set my mind to do... its a wonderful - empowering lesson!

sarah said...

I like what you wrote here. I too am thankful for what I can do and I'm trying not to focus on what I can't. Thanks so much for this. Sarah

DreamDancer said...

Hi Mile, I have been reading some of your posts and I'm now one of your Followers. I wish the best to you... you will always have friends here to share with. I will visit with you often. Take care and God Bless :)

Lisa Marie said...

Those days that allow us to be thankful are such a boost in spirit! I hope many more follow :)

Colleen said...

Thanks for sharing. I find if I try to give thanks for something every day I get into the habit of feeling grateful and it changes my whole attitude. Blessings!

who I was, who I am, who I plan to be...

i am trying to heal from severe childhood sexual, emotional,
physical, and mental abuse; and abandonment.

this is my story.

i have good and bad days, and some days the odds seem insurmountable.
i cling to the hope that healing will come to mend the shatter pieces of my heart, mind and body.

mile 191, well, you will understand as you read along.
mile 191, portions of my past have a link on the top right.
mile 191, bottoms up. hears to you and to me.

please, if you know me, just let me know you found me. i need honesty. (and please do not use personal names)
if you want to follow my story, please try to heal with me.
if you want to share with me, please do.
i will post bits of my pain as i can, and leave it here.
i once thought that i would publish...i haven't had the courage.

this is my closet, you are welcome to come in.
just know this is my refuge, healing takes place here,
maybe it will be a refuge to you too.

Quotes from Suvivors United - Standing Strong Together Against Abuse

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face.
Eleanor Roosevelt

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Helen Keller

Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.
Booker T. Washington

When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard, ' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'
Sydney Harris

Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.
Richard L. Evans

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.
Joshua J. Marine

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thanks CORNUT32! ♥

What a sweet award....and thanks for creating something so wonderful that can be passed along to bloggers who are indeed making a difference by sharing their lives.

I invite all my faithful and dear blogger friends to take this award. You indeed have made a difference in my life.

Thank you so much for being with me on my journey to heal....mile 191