My angry little girl

This forum for healing works so well for me. There is so much that each of you say that contributes to my thoughts during the week (s). Thank you.

I think that Patty hit it right saying maybe it is the angry little girl who didn't get to have a childhood, maybe she is jealous. This I have been thinking a lot about.



hmmm, so yesterday my husband asked me why I am so mean. I have the tendency to snap at everyone and say things that are so WRONG. Or ....I wont say anything at all, I'm just silent, and everyone knows I am hurting.


When he asked me it was good timing because instead of being defensive or angry about it I was able to take a minute and ponder what he said, think of my behavior and actions, and say, "you are right, I am sorry". It felt so good!!! To just realize and accept that I have a problem, a pain inside of me, and I need to work on it.

I told him I need to talk more. I need some of his time, attention to what is going on inside of me. He asked me if there is something really wrong with my thoughts right now that is causing this, and then in his amazing forgiving way he listened without judgement, giving me the attention to my pain, and nurturing me.

If this worked....If this was the solution, I would be healed.

It is helpful, but the healing has to come from within me.


I have read your comments from my last post, I am pondering them, and today....I am writing mainly in respons to my Angry Little Girl. She is really ANGRY, really JEALOUS, really HURT. She is in pain....

I have much to ponder, but this stood out.

I have a daughter, she is 12, nearly 13. She is trying for Student Body Officer and I have given her an entire week of poster making and speech and interview preparation. I have tried to be there for her 100%. I do not think I feel angry or jealous about doing this for her. I love her.... Sometimes I think that I do take out a lot of my pain on her, and it is not fair. [to her, to me, to our mother daughter relationship]


My husband works an incredible amount of hours, I miss him, it is so hard to raise children and to feel lonely doing it. I know his support of our family is critical in this economy, he is under a tremendous stress, and he wishes he could be there more with us as well. This bandaid thinking does not heal the frustration that I feel day in and day out at working/parenting....in lonliness.

I am saying a lot of things right now, here....random thoughts I suppose, but things that I am feeling.

I had some body memories last night, terrible feelings, awful thoughts. I haven't had that for a while. I think it is a reflection of the stress that I am under mentally.

Well, I will go back and read....and think, and be back soon to reflect what I am hopefully working on and hopefully healing....

Thanks for listening ♥