come into my closet, come under my bed, where you'll find me hiding,
the fear in my head.

abuse in the past, now, where do i start, making my future,
healing my heart.

crushed, and broken, falling fast-
needing comfort, make it last.

Monday, March 8, 2010

happy Trails, Smiles, and Hope...

Good morning friends.

In our path of healing we meet one another, and when we see someone down and out or veering from the path of healing we reach out to them.

We offer our shoulder, our kind words, a feeling in our safe HUGS that gives each other a moment to rest, and reflect, and ponder.

I could write so many things as I have felt so much healing and perspective from each of the comments you all left for me.

You gave me hope, and peace, and contemplation.

I have felt surrounded by so much support, and I thank you.
I will come back and ponder them all.

One thought that I keep thinking about is that our insides are not like
anyones outsides [prayer girl]. ...and that I need to not compare my experiences, or my healing to anyones.

Of course I can understand and empathize with many many experiences, and I can hope for healing which I see happening, but what is mine is mine, and I am equipped to live through, handle, and heal in my experiences.

And you are all here with me,
helping me,
buoying me,
and offering me the most amazing words,
and in your words a shoulder to rest upon,
even words of healing scripture for my heart and soul.

In the meantime enjoy this following thought from my son.
It was beautifully said, and I am so happy in that moment that I was with him in his pondering, which have launched my own contemplations.

J said the most profound thing;

which profound rhetoric caused me to ponder, which pondering caused me to desire to search within, which searching within now causes me to write....

J, upon waking Friday morning to the frigid falling of fresh flakes stated with absolute faith: Today is going to be GREAT!

Me: okay, I will play along, why???

J: Fresh new snow to shred!
To Shred is to cut a trail while
The fresh snow came just in time
for his Snowboarding Lesson day!

Me: Ummmm...

J: You don't get caught in someone elses trail,
you get to make your own!

Simple enough, and yet...profound!
Don't you think?
Really, are we suppose to get caught in someone elses trail.

Will we really be happy if we try to be just LIKE someone else??? ...wouldn't it be better if we blaze our own trail, shred fresh snow, make our own tracks, be individual???

...We were all created to be unique,
so ...why do we try to so hard to keep up with the "joneses"? is FRESH...shred you own trail.
Happy Trails Everyone!!!
And Happy Happy
Happy Smiles!

And Happy Hope in Healing!
Bless you all...


Steve E said...

It is HEART-WARMING to see you blogging again, Mile 191. I (well, "we") have a NEED to know how you are doing...Thank you Soooo much for a beautiful posting.

Love and PEACE!

Lily said...

Wow, that is so profound! Blaze your own trail, you are unique in your own body, mind and spirit and no one can lead the way better than you! :)

Jess Mistress of Mischief said...

So glad you keep sharing your experiences!

Gabriella Moonlight said...

So so glad to see you back, this was a great post and hope to see and read more!!! I may not always comment, but I read you and you help me to grow, learn and stretch...thank you!


Just Be Real/God Whispers In The Wind said...

Wow is all I can say. Blessings dear.

sarah said...

stay are a gift

sarah said...

I echo gentle care of you. Sarah

mile191 said...

thank you everyone. your blessings cheer me as i heal. hope and strength be yours. mile

VICKI IN AZ said...

Wonderful!!! He is brilliant. Thank you so much for sharing. ♥

who I was, who I am, who I plan to be...

i am trying to heal from severe childhood sexual, emotional,
physical, and mental abuse; and abandonment.

this is my story.

i have good and bad days, and some days the odds seem insurmountable.
i cling to the hope that healing will come to mend the shatter pieces of my heart, mind and body.

mile 191, well, you will understand as you read along.
mile 191, portions of my past have a link on the top right.
mile 191, bottoms up. hears to you and to me.

please, if you know me, just let me know you found me. i need honesty. (and please do not use personal names)
if you want to follow my story, please try to heal with me.
if you want to share with me, please do.
i will post bits of my pain as i can, and leave it here.
i once thought that i would publish...i haven't had the courage.

this is my closet, you are welcome to come in.
just know this is my refuge, healing takes place here,
maybe it will be a refuge to you too.

Quotes from Suvivors United - Standing Strong Together Against Abuse

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face.
Eleanor Roosevelt

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Helen Keller

Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.
Booker T. Washington

When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard, ' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'
Sydney Harris

Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.
Richard L. Evans

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.
Joshua J. Marine

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thanks CORNUT32! ♥

What a sweet award....and thanks for creating something so wonderful that can be passed along to bloggers who are indeed making a difference by sharing their lives.

I invite all my faithful and dear blogger friends to take this award. You indeed have made a difference in my life.

Thank you so much for being with me on my journey to heal....mile 191