come into my closet, come under my bed, where you'll find me hiding,
the fear in my head.

abuse in the past, now, where do i start, making my future,
healing my heart.

crushed, and broken, falling fast-
needing comfort, make it last.

Sunday, May 3, 2009


THanKs Just Be Real, for the award...what an amazing accomplishment to be acknowledged by so many of you for what....for writing my story and trying to pull my self up out of despair.

I really should be THANKING all of you, for being here for me, and yet, I get appreciated. I do think this community of friends is the most amazing thing that I have come into, as you come into my closet and you cry with me and laugh with me and pray with me, and give me hope, and encouragement.

WOW, thanks, everyone.

And THANKS Just Be Real,
for your expression of kindness.
What an adventure we are on,
and I am there with you. ♥♥

I have been MIA for a bit, off and on. Still have one paper due, and a FINAL on MOnDaY. I also have my little boy being baptized Saturday, so my family, my home, my schooling is getting all my attention. I hope to get enough done today to have a DATE night with hubby.

I have pictures from snorkeling...I will post soon. Under the water is such an amazing life and community....I wish to find the time to write my feeling here about it.

Just BREATH!!!!
I keep telling myself today...
I am pretty stressed...
and that can lead to things
I am trying to avoid.

Thanks again everyone.
Best wishes for today's success...

And most important...if you can pray for my brother in law. His Grandson fell off a ladder, he is about 14, he is unconscious still, since yesterday, convulsing and vomiting.

Pray for him, his parents, loved ones. We are hoping for him to wake up, and show signs of healing.

My love, my admiration for each of you, safe hugs and wishes!

1 comment:

Just Be Real said...

Mile you are very special!!! Blessings!

who I was, who I am, who I plan to be...

i am trying to heal from severe childhood sexual, emotional,
physical, and mental abuse; and abandonment.

this is my story.

i have good and bad days, and some days the odds seem insurmountable.
i cling to the hope that healing will come to mend the shatter pieces of my heart, mind and body.

mile 191, well, you will understand as you read along.
mile 191, portions of my past have a link on the top right.
mile 191, bottoms up. hears to you and to me.

please, if you know me, just let me know you found me. i need honesty. (and please do not use personal names)
if you want to follow my story, please try to heal with me.
if you want to share with me, please do.
i will post bits of my pain as i can, and leave it here.
i once thought that i would publish...i haven't had the courage.

this is my closet, you are welcome to come in.
just know this is my refuge, healing takes place here,
maybe it will be a refuge to you too.

Quotes from Suvivors United - Standing Strong Together Against Abuse

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face.
Eleanor Roosevelt

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Helen Keller

Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.
Booker T. Washington

When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard, ' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'
Sydney Harris

Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.
Richard L. Evans

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.
Joshua J. Marine

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thanks CORNUT32! ♥

What a sweet award....and thanks for creating something so wonderful that can be passed along to bloggers who are indeed making a difference by sharing their lives.

I invite all my faithful and dear blogger friends to take this award. You indeed have made a difference in my life.

Thank you so much for being with me on my journey to heal....mile 191