come into my closet, come under my bed, where you'll find me hiding,
the fear in my head.

abuse in the past, now, where do i start, making my future,
healing my heart.

crushed, and broken, falling fast-
needing comfort, make it last.

Thursday, May 21, 2009

real eeee me....

response to my commentors:
Blogger mile191 said...

thanks everyone...i am here, and something deep in me is....sad, I don't want to be sad, I want to be thankful, and enjoy the beautiful world that is awaiting my exploration...but I am.... maybe not sad, maybe just wondering, and worried, and weary....

but know that I have a great deal of gratitude, love, and hope.

I will write soon.

I am sorry for the long wait....

Hugs to you all for your comments and support.

mile 191, still....

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12 comments:

Wait. What? said...

take care of you - your readers will be here waiting for your return.

May 21, 2009 at 2:13 PM
Barbaloot said...

I hope you're doing okay and that you find what you need to help in your weary life.

May 22, 2009 at 6:55 AM
Marj aka Thriver said...

We'll wait for you, don't worry. Sad is okay, I think. I 've been through a lot of sadness lately. But, it's better than not being in my body, not feeling my feelings and not living a real life. It's hard, but it's part of healing.

Safe hugs ((((((((Mile 191))))))))

May 22, 2009 at 3:56 PM
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May 22, 2009 at 4:49 PM
Anonymous said...

Take your time... we're all here watching out for you, listening. You deserve it for everything you do for us all. <3

May 22, 2009 at 4:50 PM
steveroni said...

Mile 191, we love you. Your "special messages" are treasures we shall keep
forever.

You are remembered in my morning prayers DAILY. First thing every morning, 5:15 AM Eastern.

In fact that is soonshooli
, I'm going to bed......

May 22, 2009 at 9:32 PM
Psych Client said...

Mile, your writings are so deep and touching. You allow yourself to be real and raw. I can learn from you for sure.

I'm sorry you are sad, truly I am. I'll be here when you get back. Always!

May 23, 2009 at 12:08 PM
Just Be Real said...

(((major safe hugs)))

May 23, 2009 at 1:29 PM
Grace said...

You can be thankful and sad at the same time...that's what DT tells me...
~ Gracie

May 23, 2009 at 6:02 PM
Unknown said...

I think some of us just have a more "sad" disposition. I've come to a kind of peace with this, when it's not overwhelming. I like to think the trade-off is a deeper appreciation of beauty.

May 25, 2009 at 8:55 PM
Vicki Johnson said...

You are a lifter.
Thank You for lifting Me.
Sometimes sad just is...

June 13, 2009 at 1:36 AM
VICKI IN AZ said...

Will always wait.
You are always in my heart!
Take Care,
Vicki

July 6, 2009 at 10:37 AM

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who I was, who I am, who I plan to be...

i am trying to heal from severe childhood sexual, emotional,
physical, and mental abuse; and abandonment.

this is my story.

i have good and bad days, and some days the odds seem insurmountable.
i cling to the hope that healing will come to mend the shatter pieces of my heart, mind and body.

mile 191, well, you will understand as you read along.
mile 191, portions of my past have a link on the top right.
mile 191, bottoms up. hears to you and to me.

please, if you know me, just let me know you found me. i need honesty. (and please do not use personal names)
if you want to follow my story, please try to heal with me.
if you want to share with me, please do.
i will post bits of my pain as i can, and leave it here.
i once thought that i would publish...i haven't had the courage.

this is my closet, you are welcome to come in.
just know this is my refuge, healing takes place here,
maybe it will be a refuge to you too.

Quotes from Suvivors United - Standing Strong Together Against Abuse

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face.
Eleanor Roosevelt

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Helen Keller

Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.
Booker T. Washington

When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard, ' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'
Sydney Harris

Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.
Richard L. Evans

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.
Joshua J. Marine

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

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What a sweet award....and thanks for creating something so wonderful that can be passed along to bloggers who are indeed making a difference by sharing their lives.

I invite all my faithful and dear blogger friends to take this award. You indeed have made a difference in my life.

Thank you so much for being with me on my journey to heal....mile 191