Self Doubt

I have been dealing with doubt for a while now. I am reading a book about doubt. Interestingly my mother, yes, my real mom; the mother who abandoned me. I have forgiven her and she is now a part of my life in a more positive way. I haven't brushed anything under the rug for those of you who will be wondering how I can have her in my life. I just can; that is the miracle of forgiveness. I am not stupid about it. Of course I am cautious. But her life is now a reflection of her choices and trust me; she has a difficult and lonely life. But she hasn't given up; she helps me from time to time, and I try to help her some.

Anyhow, she gave me this quote, it felt like an amazing grace to me; being that it was so prevalent to what I am dealing with and feeling with right now:

" Self doubt is natural from time to time, but never forget that you're very special.

Don't worry about whether or not you 're seeing everything as it really is --the world is full of veils and illusions today. If you can enjoy the show, that's probably as good as it is going to get.

Your creativity is like solar energy -- stronger when your outlook is sunny? So today, if you feel like you are running out of good ideas, run outside. Be confident in your ability to think up new ways of doing things and know that you can always rely on your sharp brain to come to the rescue ---eventually. While self doubt is natural from time to time, you need to remember that you can fix things if you keep working at them and thinking positively."

I so appreciated her giving this to me, and felt that it was so aligned with what I am feeling and needing right now. So often the comments that you bloggers leave for me do the same thing. And often also the things that each of you post influences me so much. That is my HOPE, that I can do that for you too. Hopefully my sharing this quote and my feelings helps one of you today.

Happy Valentines Day!