My mom sent me this beautiful email, even with all the struggle and abandonment that I have had through my relationship with her, I APPRECIATED this so much.
I don't think a child ever stops wishing that they could have a mother's love.
I know that I have always wanted it. In loving my own children I have never given up the HOPE that my mommy could love me:
This email was priceless to my heart, my mind, my soul.
I know that I can't have my childhood back, or start it over, but I am thankful for forgiveness and the healing that comes from moving forward; onward, ever onward, and thankful for the healing promise of the atonement of Jesus Christ.
I believe that He took our pains and that he hurt along with us; His life giving us healing and hope in his sacrifice. Thank you, my Savior.
I share with you the tender words from my mother, the woman who abandoned me; who I have forgiven, and who is now a part of my adult life.
This is what I have always wanted in a mother, and never had; until I forgave and chose to move forward.
To my daughter,
I don't think a child ever stops wishing that they could have a mother's love.
I know that I have always wanted it. In loving my own children I have never given up the HOPE that my mommy could love me:
That she didn't abandon me.
This email was priceless to my heart, my mind, my soul.
I know that I can't have my childhood back, or start it over, but I am thankful for forgiveness and the healing that comes from moving forward; onward, ever onward, and thankful for the healing promise of the atonement of Jesus Christ.
I believe that He took our pains and that he hurt along with us; His life giving us healing and hope in his sacrifice. Thank you, my Savior.
And thanks to you all
for being here on my journey of healing.
for being here on my journey of healing.
I share with you the tender words from my mother, the woman who abandoned me; who I have forgiven, and who is now a part of my adult life.
This is what I have always wanted in a mother, and never had; until I forgave and chose to move forward.
I am thankful, I know that this is not always
what people are given in tragedies such as my childhood was:
what people are given in tragedies such as my childhood was:
To my daughter,
God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED -To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be.
Dear God: The lady reading this is beautiful, classy and strong, and I love her. Help her live her life to the fullest. Please promote her and cause her to excel above her expectations. Help her shine in the darkest places where it is impossible to love. Protect her at all times, lift her up when she needs you the most, and let her know when She walks with you, she will always be safe.
Dear God: The lady reading this is beautiful, classy and strong, and I love her. Help her live her life to the fullest. Please promote her and cause her to excel above her expectations. Help her shine in the darkest places where it is impossible to love. Protect her at all times, lift her up when she needs you the most, and let her know when She walks with you, she will always be safe.
I love you, Mom
5 comments:
steveroni is SPEECHLESS...and that doesn't happen much--EVER?
Don't know how I'd feel, 'cause I've never 'been there'.
I love you also, MILE...but I'm sure it's different from the "Mom" I love you. AND from the "husband" I love you.
Mine is of the AA-type, the human race-type, the "Under God"-type, the "All things are ONE"-type of Love. I love the "God within you", as is explained on page 55 of our Big Book.
Guess I wasn't "speechless" after all!
Steve E.
steve...thanks so much for the love and support. needed and apprectiated. i hope to be back and write some of how I REALLY am FEELING right now, write now. I will come by....haven't been too good of a blogger friend lately. i have been stuck in muck.
THANKS for the comments, and support. "MOM" is moving...more about that later...
steve...thanks so much for the love and support. needed and apprectiated. i hope to be back and write some of how I REALLY am FEELING right now, write now. I will come by....haven't been too good of a blogger friend lately. i have been stuck in muck.
THANKS for the comments, and support. "MOM" is moving...more about that later...
that is a beautiful message. and so very true. how know where we would find outselves, different to the now, if we hadn't had the people around us at the time, who were there.... you are a wonderful woman, deserving and strong! abandonment is still my master... but not for much longer, i can feel it in my bones. it's as if, suddenly without reason, some of the bonds i've been feeling have snapped... i guess, time is what it takes.
wow
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