come into my closet, come under my bed, where you'll find me hiding,
the fear in my head.

abuse in the past, now, where do i start, making my future,
healing my heart.

crushed, and broken, falling fast-
needing comfort, make it last.

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Sunday Funnies - Nov. 30, 2008

flashback to picture day:

Breakfast conversation is always hilarious:

Elijah: How's my smile?
Mack: Fine.
Elijah: I don't want it going all the way up to my eyes. How's it now?
Mack: Fine.

Hair combed, kids almost out the door, where is Elijah?

Finding him in the dog kennel, for Baxter's last morning love; his hair is array, his smile is huge. Hair or smiles, I have to decide!

and then....

Elijah (age 7) brought home his school pictures today. After all we went through on Picture day to look practically perfect [not counting the dog kennel incident], now this:

"Mom, I don't like my smile. I don't think that Olivia C. will draw a heart around my face in the yearbook. Can I have redoos?"

Redoos sound great. Can I have life redoos?


Gabriella Moonlight said...

Life re-dos are always possible. I fully believe in re-do's and second chances and have asked for them many times and take advantage of them all the time...I hope your day is filled with some joy and so glad to have found your blog.



My thoughts - I can not go back and change the past events of my life, BUT I can change my attitudes, responses, and outlook on life - with the help of my God.

Sometimes all I can see is how my experience may help someone else.

The program is what has allowed me to begin to do this rearranging of perspective. I have found acceptance of my past. I may not like it, but I do need to accept it - if I want any serenity and peace of mind.

And today - I do want serenity and peace of mind.

Prayers being sent your way now,
Prayer Girl

steveroni said...

I'm thinking about "redoos", and I'm almost certain I would NOT want redoos
...but then, I am not at this moment occupied with a disease for which there no known cure as yet. AND I am not at this moment grieving for a death which was close to me.

IF my life had been different--without all the B.S., the twenty-five years of daily drinking huge amounts of booze, the purely WASTED years, the harms done others, the shame, the guilt, the remorse, the despondency, the self-imposed loneliness--well, if it were not for all that, I might NEVER have found Alcoholics Anonymous. AA has brought me back to a God of my understanding (it sounds trite, but AIN'T!). This God I can talk to 24/7. It is He (or 'she' I don't care!) Who I can call upon ANY time for the power I need to perform a given task.

"God could and would if He were sought." All this could have been completely OFF the screen, for me. I blogged today about the Gifts of AA, and I meant every word!

steveroni said...

I LOVE the name Hope. I have a niece, about age 3, who was born sightless. Right now, there is nothing can be done for her, but our *very* large family prays for her a lot. She is loved immensely by her brothers, sisters, and cousins, and just about everyone...she is a beautiful little girl who just cannot see. Imagine that world.

Did I tell you her name? HOPE!

Shadow said...

life redoos! oh yeah, yes please! so simple, even a child can think of it, heee heee heee. he sounds adorable!

who I was, who I am, who I plan to be...

i am trying to heal from severe childhood sexual, emotional,
physical, and mental abuse; and abandonment.

this is my story.

i have good and bad days, and some days the odds seem insurmountable.
i cling to the hope that healing will come to mend the shatter pieces of my heart, mind and body.

mile 191, well, you will understand as you read along.
mile 191, portions of my past have a link on the top right.
mile 191, bottoms up. hears to you and to me.

please, if you know me, just let me know you found me. i need honesty. (and please do not use personal names)
if you want to follow my story, please try to heal with me.
if you want to share with me, please do.
i will post bits of my pain as i can, and leave it here.
i once thought that i would publish...i haven't had the courage.

this is my closet, you are welcome to come in.
just know this is my refuge, healing takes place here,
maybe it will be a refuge to you too.

Quotes from Suvivors United - Standing Strong Together Against Abuse

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face.
Eleanor Roosevelt

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Helen Keller

Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.
Booker T. Washington

When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard, ' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'
Sydney Harris

Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.
Richard L. Evans

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.
Joshua J. Marine

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thanks CORNUT32! ♥

What a sweet award....and thanks for creating something so wonderful that can be passed along to bloggers who are indeed making a difference by sharing their lives.

I invite all my faithful and dear blogger friends to take this award. You indeed have made a difference in my life.

Thank you so much for being with me on my journey to heal....mile 191