come into my closet, come under my bed, where you'll find me hiding,
the fear in my head.

abuse in the past, now, where do i start, making my future,
healing my heart.

crushed, and broken, falling fast-
needing comfort, make it last.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Sunday Funnies

...I am going to be fine,
I am too stubborn to fail at anything,
including healing and Hope.

that said...

I have decided that if I have the time to blog
I am going to share the cute things my kids do
or say that make me smile,
and something I am thankful for each day.

Positive thoughts; positive momentum forward.

This week as I picked Elijah up from school, alone,
because his older siblings are tying out for the school play,
I DELIGHTED in listening to him talk.
He had so much to say
and I was THANKFUL for the time with him.
I think that he sometimes is quiet
because everyone else is so noisy.

He is a DANG cute kid.
I wish that everything he said would be as cute to you all,
but I have seen your blogs,
you have cute moments and funny kids too,
[which i enjoy...smiles...]
and seriously cool lives....actually that being said [the cool word]...
I have a story.

My story is my thing that made me smile today.
Elijah was talking non stop,
the boys at school,
THE GIRLS at school
- remember he is 7.
He was talking about the teams his friends are on.
I asked, teams, like sports, are you playing games.

Oh no, he says, not sports.
Actually the entire interaction
between kids these days is like a sport,
with NEW rules, not olden day style.

So, he is telling me about all these kids
and the funny events of the day.
He is laughing hilariously at himself.

So I said, "Sounds like you have a lot of friends,
you must be a COOL kid."

And that, my blogger friends, is where my STORY comes in.

"COOL kids," he responds,
"OH NO, that is the OTHER TEAM.
My team is AWESOME.
We are definitely not
Constipated, Outdated, Overweighted, Losers."

HELLO, what was I thinking.
It is so not cool to be COOL.

So, YOU, you are awesome.
You are the awesome team.

I am not sure that I know ANYONE who is cool these days.

And, it is Over WEIGHTED, not over RATED....I also learned that tidbit.
KIDS these days.



steveroni said...

Hello, Mile!

Great to read you 7-yr-old story. I had my third girl friend by the time I was seven. And I was ready--well, not really--to marry each one, or all three, it did not matter.

It would be nice if no one comments on that last sentence. -grin!

Anyway, I thought it WAS a "cool" story, but I'm not "cool". No way! I am on the AWESOME team. OK?

Hope you're doing OK, girl. BTW, I do not advertise, really think it is 'cool', that some people do. But my blog tonight, after 10PM will be just a few short lines on "Hope". It
will be "awesome"...not "cool"!

Please, I need you to read it. Thanx



I love your decision to blog some positive, uplifting, happy, funny things. That is always a good thing.

I love all you write - whether it is sad, angry, or on the light side.

Love you,
Prayer Girl

mile191 said...

im here.. i will read it.

Thanks for all the positive comments. I am getting help, so my blogging is not spot on right now. i spend less time here, and more time night [instead of being up all night, which is probably going to help a lot of,...well, just help]

I am going to read your post tonight. and then go talk to my husband. I have been keeping him in the dark, with my doctors appointments, etc. He needs to hear from me what I am going through.

love and thanks to all of you who are here to support me in my healing.


LulaBelle said...

Kids are funny. I'm glad you have them to help brighten your days!

Psych Client said...

Hey Mile, I've been out of touch lately. I'm sorry.

I loved reading this post about your son. They do make us smile now don't they? We can't help it!

This post was what I needed to read tonight. I have an email coming to you soon.

LarryG said...

if you know kids you know someone cool!
and awesome too.
how about the Funny Paper!

Anonymous said...

Kids are so precious, this blog made me laugh and I surely needed it today. I hope things are going well for you dear. *hug*

Colleen said...

I enjoyed your post. I find it healing to look for things to be thankful for everyday, even when I do not particularly feel thankful. And hope. We all need hope. Thanks for sharing.

who I was, who I am, who I plan to be...

i am trying to heal from severe childhood sexual, emotional,
physical, and mental abuse; and abandonment.

this is my story.

i have good and bad days, and some days the odds seem insurmountable.
i cling to the hope that healing will come to mend the shatter pieces of my heart, mind and body.

mile 191, well, you will understand as you read along.
mile 191, portions of my past have a link on the top right.
mile 191, bottoms up. hears to you and to me.

please, if you know me, just let me know you found me. i need honesty. (and please do not use personal names)
if you want to follow my story, please try to heal with me.
if you want to share with me, please do.
i will post bits of my pain as i can, and leave it here.
i once thought that i would publish...i haven't had the courage.

this is my closet, you are welcome to come in.
just know this is my refuge, healing takes place here,
maybe it will be a refuge to you too.

Quotes from Suvivors United - Standing Strong Together Against Abuse

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face.
Eleanor Roosevelt

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Helen Keller

Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.
Booker T. Washington

When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard, ' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'
Sydney Harris

Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.
Richard L. Evans

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.
Joshua J. Marine

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thanks CORNUT32! ♥

What a sweet award....and thanks for creating something so wonderful that can be passed along to bloggers who are indeed making a difference by sharing their lives.

I invite all my faithful and dear blogger friends to take this award. You indeed have made a difference in my life.

Thank you so much for being with me on my journey to heal....mile 191