from my mom

My mom sent me this beautiful email, even with all the struggle and abandonment that I have had through my relationship with her, I APPRECIATED this so much.

I don't think a child ever stops wishing that they could have a mother's love.

I know that I have always wanted it. In loving my own children I have never given up the HOPE that my mommy could love me:

That she didn't abandon me.

This email was priceless to my heart, my mind, my soul.

I know that I can't have my childhood back, or start it over, but I am thankful for forgiveness and the healing that comes from moving forward; onward, ever onward, and thankful for the healing promise of the atonement of Jesus Christ.

I believe that He took our pains and that he hurt along with us; His life giving us healing and hope in his sacrifice. Thank you, my Savior.

And thanks to you all
for being here on my journey of healing.

I share with you the tender words from my mother, the woman who abandoned me; who I have forgiven, and who is now a part of my adult life.

This is what I have always wanted in a mother, and never had; until I forgave and chose to move forward.

I am thankful, I know that this is not always
what people are given in tragedies such as my childhood was:

To my daughter,

God doesn't give you the people you want, He gives you the people you NEED -To help you, to hurt you, to leave you, to love you and to make you into the person you were meant to be.

Dear God: The lady reading this is beautiful, classy and strong, and I love her. Help her live her life to the fullest. Please promote her and cause her to excel above her expectations. Help her shine in the darkest places where it is impossible to love. Protect her at all times, lift her up when she needs you the most, and let her know when She walks with you, she will always be safe.

I love you, Mom