"You know... some times I think all I am good enough for is sex and that I should have a sign on my back saying so.. but now I think I'm just good for making others happy, whether its sex or not.
Just walk all over me"
from a beautiful disaster
I have felt this feeling from abusive situations in the past. And there is still a part of me that sometimes says to my husband, well, maybe you would be nice if I gave it to you, or some other god awful thing, which hurts him to the very core. It is awful being a victim/survivor of abuse.
Notice I say both, because even once you survive it there are moments you are still a victim of it.
And it sucks. Anyhow, knowing this and feeling such a sympathy for those of you who are hurting right now, I just wanted to say. I am sorry. I am sorry for all the times you have felt yourself being walked all over, or that you were only good for one thing.
You are not alone, i am here, we are here. Please let me know if you are reading and if I can do anything, even if it is just stop by your site more often. Yes, I am here. I get busy and don't get out there as much as I would like, but if you need me, I am here, just please say so.
love and appreciation for your reading me, for your comments and support as well. I am still healing, always healing, which is to say, I HOPE I am always getting a bit better than yesterday, but not as good as tomorrow. Thanks again. love to you all. xoxoxxx
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Thanks CORNUT32! ♥
What a sweet award....and thanks for creating something so wonderful that can be passed along to bloggers who are indeed making a difference by sharing their lives.
I invite all my faithful and dear blogger friends to take this award. You indeed have made a difference in my life.
Thank you so much for being with me on my journey to heal....mile 191
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Your post's and comments do me a world of good - thank you.
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I'm very touched that you quoted me.
You are right hun... we should all be here for each other.. one day we will be okay xx
There are patterns we sometimes don't even realize we have. You'll laugh at me, but after I adopted my dog this summer, I realized one day that I was falling into the pattern of putting her needs first, of believing I HAD to be able to make her happy--that that was my raison d'etre.
Being able to make others happy may have been our only way to survive. I know that i literally would have been dead if I hadn't figured out how. And it's so easy to think that's the only reason we matter to others--for what we give them.
Big (((((hugs))))).
I can bond with the "just walk all over me" phrase. All too well.
Thanks for my award Mile! Love ya
thank you for your encouragement...and for sharing your closet...xo
Many hugs to you! Yes, even when we have survived or are healed, the unexpected can catch us off guard. But, each day we just continue to learn, heal and grow and even if it doesn't feel like it at times, each day we become just a bit stronger.
thank you all. it is such a beautiful refreshing feeling of love to come here and find your comments, and to know that somehow, even as hard as some feelings are to feel, that not one of us is truly alone. scary that so many people are hurting. love to you today. ♥
You're right. I think most of us, if we're rally honest, still feel this way more often than we'd like to admit. It does suck. But, knowing we're not alone does help. Thanks for being honest.
Hey, I finally got a post up where I mention the Lemonade award--thanks again. Unfortunately, I tried lots of my usual tricks and I can't get the graphic to load. ;( Pooey!
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