come into my closet, come under my bed, where you'll find me hiding,
the fear in my head.

abuse in the past, now, where do i start, making my future,
healing my heart.

crushed, and broken, falling fast-
needing comfort, make it last.

Thursday, January 22, 2009

a little nerdie

just enjoyed a scout meeting with my oldest son.
don't get me wrong, i usually do enjoy scouting; not just for my scouts.

i love the clapping, i love the cheers, i love seeing children acknowledged for accomplishments.

but what i love most is knowing that there is a program worthwhile for my sons to participate in where grown men will share feelings and thoughts that i am quite certain i would not get into my sons head alone.

Thank you leaders.


tonight the scoutmasters minute went as such.

I will write in first person, as he spoke it, but it is not verbatim.


"I was married a couple of years ago. My father in law is a biologist. I have always listened to him talk about biology things that are just a little nerdy.

Most recently he has shared with my wife and I about bird watching. Sound a little nerdy...probably because it is.

You get your little book of birds, your old tape recorder of bird sounds, your binoculars and you watch...For birds. Thats it.

You look for their colors, their flight patters, listen for their songs.

Yep, nerdy.

Well most recently I learned something about this.

I went to a campground this past summer. We hiked, we played, we camped. It was awesome.

Later in the year we were assigned to do a bird watch at the very same campground. Yep, me, a bird watch.

Sound a little nerdy. Yep. I got my book of birds, I got a tape recorder of bird sounds, and I got my binoculars and we went back to that same campground.

And do you know what. We looked for birds.

And do you know what. WE FOUND BIRDS.

Yep, and guess what else. I had the most amazing time, even a much better time than I ever had before.

I had something I was looking for and I found it.

What I learned from that experience is the same in life.

If you know what you are looking for, you WILL FIND IT.
As is with the gospel of Jesus Christ. He has given us a little bit of instruction, and a way to find Him,

and if you look for Him in life, you will find Him.


Whatever you look for in life, you will find."


Amen to that.
I don't mind being a little nerdie once in a while.
It looks good on me. And it feels good in me.

5 comments:

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Shadow said...

that is so true. and so beautifully told. thanks for sharing that. nerdy? so what...

Cat said...

I embrace the nerd in me - its a beautiful part of who I am - and I am so glad not to be the only nerd bearing soul blogging!
(hugs)

Cat

Prayer Girl said...

Thanks Hope,
Beautiful post and gorgeous pictures. I love the message of what you wrote and you, the messenger.

I'm actually feeling better this morning.

Thanks for all your kind comments over the last few days. I am grateful.

Marj aka Thriver said...

Most people don't know this about me: I'm a nerdy bird watcher! I don't talk about it much, but I've actually turned a few people on to birding that I never thought would get into it (my husband, for example). Hee hee!

Thanks for the beautiful nature photographs. Lovely!

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