come into my closet, come under my bed, where you'll find me hiding,
the fear in my head.

abuse in the past, now, where do i start, making my future,
healing my heart.

crushed, and broken, falling fast-
needing comfort, make it last.

Saturday, January 17, 2009

repost of erased

I have been reading back on some of my posts,
reflecting what has brought me strength through this
and I came across this.

I still feel passionate about this
and wanted to reshare it.
because i had a few people
who were with me through
the painful times in my life.

i have come across one of them
and he is an amazing person
to have held my secrets for so long
he was there during the hardest parts
of my painful childhood.

he knew my friend who was part of the

there I said it, :the rape

i have noticed a couple of new readers
who have used their voices
i hope they have some one like i did
to turn to
who doesn't remove the pain
but is willing to go through it with you

thank you to my friend
and to ALL of you who
have become my friends,
and who are with me on this journey

YOU are amazing.
and if I could hug you all
i would. thing.
my sister found me,
my cousin found me,
i want to thank them for
being so understanding
for the kindness they
have shown to me
and for teaching me
that my experiences are not WHO i am
they are just in my past
my future is up to me.



my life is better.[now]
that much i know,

i have had wonderful friends.
people who have understood me
you know who you are if you read this.
in high school, in my neighborhood
not one, but three essential people
who listened, who didn't run from
my nightmare, but stood with me
through it. no YOU didn't go through
it, but I think what you did standing by me
was harder than what I was dealing with
you who loved me
you who listened to me
you who saw the pain in my eyes.
you who felt the pain in my heart.
YOU are amazing people
the couple of you who knew things,
who helped me through
tough times. THANK YOU."



Tigger :) said...

I want you to know I am here for you and l♥ve you! ♥ Hugs!

Cat said...

I took a fast minute to come over and reply to your comment feel free to link whatever you like I am ok with that.

I will be back reading and commenting this week now that things have Slown down.

who I was, who I am, who I plan to be...

i am trying to heal from severe childhood sexual, emotional,
physical, and mental abuse; and abandonment.

this is my story.

i have good and bad days, and some days the odds seem insurmountable.
i cling to the hope that healing will come to mend the shatter pieces of my heart, mind and body.

mile 191, well, you will understand as you read along.
mile 191, portions of my past have a link on the top right.
mile 191, bottoms up. hears to you and to me.

please, if you know me, just let me know you found me. i need honesty. (and please do not use personal names)
if you want to follow my story, please try to heal with me.
if you want to share with me, please do.
i will post bits of my pain as i can, and leave it here.
i once thought that i would publish...i haven't had the courage.

this is my closet, you are welcome to come in.
just know this is my refuge, healing takes place here,
maybe it will be a refuge to you too.

Quotes from Suvivors United - Standing Strong Together Against Abuse

You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you stop to look fear in the face.
Eleanor Roosevelt

When one door closes another door opens; but we so often look so long and so regretfully upon the closed door, that we do not see the ones which open for us.
Helen Keller

Success is not to be measured by the position someone has reached in life, but the obstacles he has overcome while trying to succeed.
Booker T. Washington

When I hear somebody sigh, 'Life is hard, ' I am always tempted to ask, 'Compared to what?'
Sydney Harris

Don't let life discourage you; everyone who got where he is had to begin where he was.
Richard L. Evans

Challenges are what make life interesting; overcoming them is what makes life meaningful.
Joshua J. Marine

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us.
Ralph Waldo Emerson

Thanks CORNUT32! ♥

What a sweet award....and thanks for creating something so wonderful that can be passed along to bloggers who are indeed making a difference by sharing their lives.

I invite all my faithful and dear blogger friends to take this award. You indeed have made a difference in my life.

Thank you so much for being with me on my journey to heal....mile 191