when i asked for readers
to ask me things they want to know.
to ask me things they want to know.
1. i don't do major housework,
i surface clean...and fake the rest.
2. i haven't read an entire book through for at least 3 years.
i have stacks of books around but haven't finished any of them.
3. i don't spend quality time with my kids anymore;
i am always irritable, and i don't give them enough attention.
4. i haven't read a bedtime story
to my kids in so long....i can't remember.
my husband reads to them and tucks them in.
it is something i already regret.
5. i promised myself i would live with NO REGRETS,
and yet, i have many of them.
okay...these are pretty negative and i am wondering why i am so hard on myself. he didn't say write ten AWFUL things about myself...just 10 things, which tells me that I am kind of depressed today...so, RIGHT NOW, I am going to stop this confession and think of 5 positive things....to balance it out. And then I am going to get off the computer and resolve the five things I just recognized about myself that I regret and work on changing them.
6. i take a lot of pictures.
my kids know that their lives are important
because they are well documented.
i always want to take pictures of them
accomplishing things.
i support them in everything they want to do.
7. i let my kids eat dessert first.
i figure that if they eat the good stuff first
they might be too full for dessert so
we eat the sweet first. yummy.
our motto is: Life is short, eat dessert first.
8. i spend a lot of time with my grandparents.
even losing my grandmother,
i know that i spent the time I needed to with her,
and now I continue to see my grandpa
and talk to him often.
I have no regrets there.
9. i date my husband,
and i love it. (and i love him,
he is amazing, which makes me feel pretty good,
because he loves me, just the way that i am.)
10. i believe in Jesus Christ,
and I love to share my feelings about Him,
He has done so much for us.
I think this is probably the most important
thing that I could come up with about me
that is good.
He makes ME worthwhile.
11. i am adding one because i need to say it.
I am a good mother.
I have faults, so I am not perfect,
and I don't think being perfect is
the most important thing.
I snuggle my kids, they know I love them,
we are a pretty good combo,
my husband and me.
The kids don't lack for anything
between the two of us,
and that is all that matters.
I don't have to do everything,
what i do is enough.
So, @11: I AM A GOOD MOM.
and I am trying to do better
at a lot of the things that I wish I did
, and that is what matters most.
phew...that was hard.
thanks for asking....i think i made it
harder than was necessary.
and not really even interesting. just painful.
maybe i need a redo.
and not make it so HARD.
A little on the lighter side
would have been nice. oh well.
i am going to post it anyhow.
It feels a bit like confession,
and will be good for me to leave here,
in my healing place.
and to work on the things i found
that i want to change...or make better
thanks for reading...
or at least for the kindness
you extend in commenting.
Have a happy day!
i surface clean...and fake the rest.
2. i haven't read an entire book through for at least 3 years.
i have stacks of books around but haven't finished any of them.
3. i don't spend quality time with my kids anymore;
i am always irritable, and i don't give them enough attention.
4. i haven't read a bedtime story
to my kids in so long....i can't remember.
my husband reads to them and tucks them in.
it is something i already regret.
5. i promised myself i would live with NO REGRETS,
and yet, i have many of them.
okay...these are pretty negative and i am wondering why i am so hard on myself. he didn't say write ten AWFUL things about myself...just 10 things, which tells me that I am kind of depressed today...so, RIGHT NOW, I am going to stop this confession and think of 5 positive things....to balance it out. And then I am going to get off the computer and resolve the five things I just recognized about myself that I regret and work on changing them.
6. i take a lot of pictures.
my kids know that their lives are important
because they are well documented.
i always want to take pictures of them
accomplishing things.
i support them in everything they want to do.
7. i let my kids eat dessert first.
i figure that if they eat the good stuff first
they might be too full for dessert so
we eat the sweet first. yummy.
our motto is: Life is short, eat dessert first.
8. i spend a lot of time with my grandparents.
even losing my grandmother,
i know that i spent the time I needed to with her,
and now I continue to see my grandpa
and talk to him often.
I have no regrets there.
9. i date my husband,
and i love it. (and i love him,
he is amazing, which makes me feel pretty good,
because he loves me, just the way that i am.)
10. i believe in Jesus Christ,
and I love to share my feelings about Him,
He has done so much for us.
I think this is probably the most important
thing that I could come up with about me
that is good.
He makes ME worthwhile.
11. i am adding one because i need to say it.
I am a good mother.
I have faults, so I am not perfect,
and I don't think being perfect is
the most important thing.
I snuggle my kids, they know I love them,
we are a pretty good combo,
my husband and me.
The kids don't lack for anything
between the two of us,
and that is all that matters.
I don't have to do everything,
what i do is enough.
So, @11: I AM A GOOD MOM.
and I am trying to do better
at a lot of the things that I wish I did
, and that is what matters most.
phew...that was hard.
thanks for asking....i think i made it
harder than was necessary.
and not really even interesting. just painful.
maybe i need a redo.
and not make it so HARD.
A little on the lighter side
would have been nice. oh well.
i am going to post it anyhow.
It feels a bit like confession,
and will be good for me to leave here,
in my healing place.
and to work on the things i found
that i want to change...or make better
thanks for reading...
or at least for the kindness
you extend in commenting.
Have a happy day!
5 comments:
if we were all perfectly good angels. but we're not. yet that doesn't make up bad either. look at all the good you do.....
I was happy to see you recognized you were being negative and too hard on yourself and turned it around. It sounds to me like you have a lot of wonderful in your life. I hope that you can focus on that for the most part.
Hugs,
Tamara
Mile, you are hereby nominated today for the BBOTW (Best-Blog-Of-The-Week)
Since I'm the only one voting, you are the WINNER!
This blog was positively the BEST! It is a good beginning of a great Step Five! Not just facts, but what the heart says, and how the heart feels--BEYOND those facts, as you see them.
You are a lucky girl to have a husband who loves and cherishes you, and his family. So MANY on here we read do not have that gift of a 'bonded' family. And HE is SO VERY lucky to have YOU, girl. I'm so happy for you I'm tearing up (just a little!)
Love, from your blogger friend, Steve E.
I had a hard time doing that one too. I hate being brutally honest about myself, unless I feel like it! LOL. Sometimes my honesty turns into negativity, great job turning it around!
Often time my time looking at myself is so negative that I put on those rose colored glasses to give myself a break - but then taking them off is always so much harder...
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