10 things no one knows about me:

question courtesy of Jess Mistress of Mischief.

when i asked for readers
to ask me things they want to know.

1. i don't do major housework,
i surface clean...and fake the rest.
2. i haven't read an entire book through for at least 3 years.
i have stacks of books around but haven't finished any of them.
3. i don't spend quality time with my kids anymore;
i am always irritable, and i don't give them enough attention.
4. i haven't read a bedtime story
to my kids in so long....i can't remember.
my husband reads to them and tucks them in.
it is something i already regret.
5. i promised myself i would live with NO REGRETS,
and yet, i have many of them.


okay...these are pretty negative and i am wondering why i am so hard on myself. he didn't say write ten AWFUL things about myself...just 10 things, which tells me that I am kind of depressed today...so, RIGHT NOW, I am going to stop this confession and think of 5 positive things....to balance it out. And then I am going to get off the computer and resolve the five things I just recognized about myself that I regret and work on changing them.

6. i take a lot of pictures.
my kids know that their lives are important
because they are well documented.
i always want to take pictures of them
accomplishing things.
i support them in everything they want to do.
7. i let my kids eat dessert first.
i figure that if they eat the good stuff first
they might be too full for dessert so
we eat the sweet first. yummy.
our motto is: Life is short, eat dessert first.
8. i spend a lot of time with my grandparents.
even losing my grandmother,
i know that i spent the time I needed to with her,
and now I continue to see my grandpa
and talk to him often.
I have no regrets there.
9. i date my husband,
and i love it. (and i love him,
he is amazing, which makes me feel pretty good,
because he loves me, just the way that i am.)
10. i believe in Jesus Christ,
and I love to share my feelings about Him,
He has done so much for us.
I think this is probably the most important
thing that I could come up with about me
that is good.
He makes ME worthwhile.

11. i am adding one because i need to say it.
I am a good mother.
I have faults, so I am not perfect,
and I don't think being perfect is
the most important thing.
I snuggle my kids, they know I love them,
we are a pretty good combo,
my husband and me.
The kids don't lack for anything
between the two of us,
and that is all that matters.
I don't have to do everything,
what i do is enough.
So, @11: I AM A GOOD MOM.
and I am trying to do better
at a lot of the things that I wish I did
, and that is what matters most.

phew...that was hard.
thanks for asking....i think i made it
harder than was necessary.
and not really even interesting. just painful.

maybe i need a redo.

and not make it so HARD.
A little on the lighter side
would have been nice. oh well.
i am going to post it anyhow.
It feels a bit like confession,
and will be good for me to leave here,
in my healing place.
and to work on the things i found
that i want to change...or make better

thanks for reading...

or at least for the kindness
you extend in commenting.

Have a happy day!